So many endings, so many beginnings.

I can't even begin to explain the emotions that I am feeling. I'm officially no longer living with my parents. It's kind of scary. I suppose every older teenager looks forward to this day, as I have, and now that it's here, I don't know how to feel about it.

I'm kind of a quitter. There are a lot of things I started, but I quit because I got too scared. There were three or four times when I started looking for jobs and/or apartments around the area I'm living in now, but I chickened out. This time, I wasn't scared. I finally felt like it was the right time to move. (kinda don't really have a choice at this point, but I still had peace about moving/marriage/all that jazz)

So, consider this a toast to all the lasts:
The last day at my first job;
my last day at augusta walmart;
my last day living with my parents;
etc.

And a toast to all the firsts and firsts to come:
the first time I'm living on my own;
The first time I'm responsible for my own bills;
The first time I'm living less than 95 miles from Matt;
And soon enough, the first time I will cleave to someone other than my parents.

I graduated high school, and didn't feel any older.
I started college and working non-stop, and didn't feel any older.
I turned 18, and was immediately responsible by law for any actions I were to take, felt the same.
I got a college degree, and still felt the same.
But the day I got engaged, I felt like I was becoming an adult.
And that's what I am. It's a weird feeling, with emotions I can't begin to explain.

Forget the pictures

So,

an update post, with a lack of pictures.

I have had three, yes three bridal showers.

One with the bridal party, one in New Jersey with my Jersey family, and a Jack and Jill party with some church buddies.

Matt and I have gotten an apartment and have moved most of our stuff in. I move in on Saturday, and Matt joins me after the wedding.

I have transferred my job with Walmart to Sanford, ME. I will be working as an overnight receiver. It's not the best job or the best hours, but my pay rate goes up for working overnight and I can be with Matthew more (and since hes the one with the primary income at this point in time, it works well.)

My dress is completely altered and ready to be worn :)

My new budget for the apartment and that stage of my life is up to date and right where it should be

We have all the furniture for our apartment, less a few odds and ends and dressers.

We have two honeymoons booked: one right after the wedding at the Adventure Suites in Conway NH for two nights. The second will be the first week in February, and we are taking a week long cruise to the Western Caribbean!

And while any day God gives me life is a blessing, circumstances have made life exceptionally exciting these past few weeks, and I am looking forward to what life has in store for Matt and I especially these next few months, but altogether for many years to come!